UnderstandingMadness

    Well i just needed a name for what i'm feeling right now...i think all i wanted was to go back in time,but it's impossible right ? it's never coming back,not for me,and then i keep standing here,standing still with my heart over my hands,if i could have a heart...a thousand times colder,that's the true,if only i could let it go...but i can't...i don't even try anymore,cause i know it's going nowhere...but i'm just a fool,not a fool...the fool...maybe i'm just kind enought...i can't be a bad guy,i don't want to be a bad guy,maybe this is a weak spot,people will always let me down,and when they do...i continue on being a nice person for them,i'll never get this,guess i'd rather carry the weight alone than be a weight myself...

 and thank God,i'm doin fine on my own,sometimes i can say 'i don't give a fck'.... and believe me,if i could choose i would choose to not be like this....alone....but this is not a choice,it's life right ? i did my best...and this is how we learn...and believe,i wouldn't trade this for nothing...if only i could be like this without feeling empty...hollow,theeen my friend,i would be the happiest person walking on this planet surface...
   for now i'm just satisfied with being what i am...i mean,i don't lie,im smart,i can forgive,i'm an artist...i'm at least cute...and cult...maybe a gentleman (;

while all the others...they're just liars,deceivers,perverts,thieves,they don't have any kind of talent...i can say for sure,a lot of people wants to be under my skin...but i'm sorry,Well's not like you,and he will never be...He's just everything that most people tell as a weird...and maaaaan....since i don't have anybody to feel proud for me...i can say for sure..I'm proud of me...
 
    Well today's a busy day,i goin to be out for hours,and i'm gonna be tired...oh Well,if you're wondering...Well never takes a break haha...We'll play 'till we're dead,don't ever forget this...


                              to end the rapture,i have to sing my life's soundtrack...


                          ''i wish i could be the one,
                           the one who won't care at all
                           but being the one on the stand...
                           i know the way to go
                           no one's guiding me...''