UnderstandingMadness

     Weeeelll,wasup ? 6:00 here,guess what,i haven't sleeped and guess what,i'm goin to play today,i just can't sleep,there are too many things on my mind today,sometimes i just cant take you off my head,you're just there and there and there,and when i look up close,is not you...im tired,i'm very tired,i feel like im just running and running and running,restless,i cant rest,but now i'm done,my job's done here,knows one thing,everything was just the way it was,today i know for real what is true,and what is not true,nobody ever believed me,they just say: you're overthinking it....but no,when it happens,they all see it was for real,complaints aside.
      i hope for a good show today,without you,without anybody,just me,and me...the way we are,sadly there's no one for me to stare while i play,someone to make it worth,all i see is emptiness...and i'm sorry,now i realise,there's no way to go back,time changes everything,even you...what is dead,stay dead,and i'm sorry...i couldn't hold on.
      since that day you left me with an empty heart and a pocket full of question,since that day i've promised me to never look back,i'll never look back,i'll follow on,no matter what happens,one day when i come home i'll have all of my answers,if it was that way at least you changed me,i didn't asked for it but thank you,now i have the guts to say,get out of my way...and don't be scared thats good,that's how it is,for real i can't eat nobody's bullshit anymore if you want to lie,you'll have to be a very good liar,otherwhise,i'll never believe you...justice brothers,one day resistances will fall,they all will show their faces,and tell me....are you a fan of wearing masks ?
        i have a lot to say,i'll just go...i can't promise you anything,all i can say : don't matter what happens,be true...if they lie to you,it's not your fault,they're just lying for themselves...and remember it's very easy to go out and make out with everyone,hard is to make one person happy for the rest of your life,what are you ? a hardcore ? or you're just a pussy ? i bet you are a Loser...if you know what i mean....well,what happens now ?
      i don't know gentlemen,i don't wanna anything to happen,i just want to stay here on my own and i'll do it,already doing...all of these nights just went by,i still doing my best on my best,sometimes it feels so lonely,watching the dawn without you here,that's when i just need a hug and tell me,everything's gonna be ok...cause i cant live another day without you,that's when i realise you're not here to give me this hug...and then i come here to cry alone on my own...no matter what i try...time's not coming back,neither for me,neither for you....
       have you ever watched the sun rising ? i did,and i can say for you with sure is the most killing thing ever,i don't know anything sadder than this...even with all of those songs...four days till my birthday....strange fact is that i've pictured this day as a very happy day,i'll be nineteen...guess i was wrong,but i'll still be nineteen.